Morning Stories: Sticking to the plan

Exercising, writing, being the person I want to be

There’s a fight in my head going on this morning. One side of me wants to go for a walk, the other wants to stick to the plan and have a rest day. I’m exercising a lot since a couple of months and I know that it’s best to do nothing on some days. And still, because I’ve got into the rhythm of exercising every morning, it feels strange to do nothing.

Morning light yesterday as seen from my back garden.

I wish I had this problem with writing. That it was writing I had difficulty to take a break from. Although exercising and making my muscles strong again is very important to my health (as an orthopaedist and physiotherapist told me multiple times), I really would prefer to be this good in keeping at it with my writing, not moving my body.

At the beginning of this year I promised myself to write lots. To fill all the notebooks that are waiting on the shelf, to blog, to write these letters, to be my best writing self. And then I turned my back on it, to be sucked in by my work that wasn’t supposed ever to take priority over my writing.

So now, about a month before my 45th birthday I promise myself again to write lots. To fill my 46th year of life with words, to accumulate notebooks full of ink, to write the first draft of the damn book, to blog, to keep writing these letters, to be who I want to be. Because it may not be too late to become who I want to be, but I’m also tired of waiting for my head to catch up with my heart.

P.S. My 45th birthday is on the 16th of June. I’ve made a list of 45 books for this occasion. If you feel like gifting me a book (or an e-book as the lists consists of paperbacks and e-books) here is the list.

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