On giving myself time
and not running away
I’ve been in a weird state of mind lately. I feel like I want to drop everything a start anew, but also think that it may be a little bit too late for it too. Which is strange for me, because I’m a big believer in “it’s never too late” (at least for most things) mantra. I don’t know where it’s coming from and I try not to think about it too much, so it won’t grow and take over my mind. Dropping everything is not an option at the moment, but you never know, right? Maybe in a few months or a year it will be and I will.
I was reading a book in preparation for some workshops and the author had a thought that she wants to be in a relationship with a woman (the book is Wild Mind by Natalie Goldberg). She was surprised by it and then said to herself, OK, Natalie, give it two years. And this one little sentence went straight to my heart.
Give it two years, but also give it all you have. Don’t try, don’t think and talk about it, but do, with everything you have, do the thing you want to do. And then give it two years and at the end see where you are with it and what your feelings are then.
Is it a lot? No, it will probably fly by, but it is also a good thing. Because two years is enough time to go deep on something, but also not too long for when it turns out not to be your thing.
So I’m telling myself, OK, Anna, give it two years.
What are you willing to do for two years?
This is such good advice!
Ehm.. If I had more free time I would love to design my own crochet patterns. I would take those 2 years to see if I could make that happen.