I don't even want to talk about it anymore
or another post on Instagram, hopefully the last one
What would you do if your Insta account has been hacked or blocked by the Insta gods? Would you try to get it back? Would you start a new account? I think that I would walk away and never look back. Or I would look back and think about all the amazing people I’ve met there, but I wouldn’t go back. At least that’s what I want to believe.
I’ve been on Insta breaks multiple times. Some were planned, some just happened, they were short and long, but I always went back. I told myself that it was because of the people there, but now I’m not so sure about it. It’s part of it, of course, but also I think that I was afraid that I would miss out on an opportunity (no idea what kind of opportunity, but the feeling was there for sure). So I went back and tried to find my way there again.
Now I feel like I’m on Instagram just because that’s something I do. But I’m not sure I really want to be there. Only, I seem not to be able to make the big decision and move away. There’s always something that keeps me on there. The people, the book club, the FOMO.
So if someone hacked my account (don’t expect it to happen, I’m a very small fish) or the Insta gods decided that I wasn’t worth the space, I wouldn’t fight it. I would let it happen and find my way without it. I think. I hope.
To tell you the truth, I don’t know why I’m feeling this way. Maybe because I’m tired of fighting in general? I feel like everything I do gets sucked into the big void and nothing happens. But on the other side I feel like there’s always something being sold to me. A different (better?) life, a subscription (that’s mainly a Substack thing, all the previews!), a next best course, an even better way to earn money, another creative community (for “only” 6,99 a month) or I feel that if I do something and it can’t be sold in some way it has no value, that it doesn’t make sense to be doing it at all.
And that makes me feel so extremely tired.
So if today, or this week, or even this month, my Insta account would disappear, I would be fine with it and I would not fight to get it back.
I would miss u, for sure!
Someone did hack my account and then I immediately was getting messages about how ‘they’ could get it back for me, but I had no real investment in my account so I just told them not to worry I’d take the opportunity to create a different one and reported it. It was back in 24 hrs. But they were stupid targeting me and my 25 followers, I really couldn’t have cared less about it all.