Morning Stories: when there are no thoughts
Empty head, beautiful world and a difficult choice
This morning my head is empty. There are literally no thoughts that want to come out. Or maybe there are, but I just can’t put them into words?
Wait a minute. Let me chceck.
Nope, sorry, there’s nothing there. Just an empty space and a bit of pressure headache.
I’ve opened the window this morning to hear the birds sing. Sometimes the overflying geese add to it with their screeching shouts. It’s such a noisy morning!
The world is beautiful at the moment with all the colours and soft light. I enjoy cycling to work so much right now (when I’m not cycling against the wind after a few hours on my feet, that is).
I have this vision of myself, which became even stronger after reading Deborah Levy’s Living Authobiography books, where I cycle a lot. I see myself on the bike, cycling somewhere to go for a walk, or just to visit some place. I see myself jumping on the bike every day. And then I cycle to work and back (which is 10 km each way) and decide that I’ll never be able to do this. Cycling is hard. And the wind seems to never be in my favour.
I am considering buying an e-bike, but they are very expensive and, also, I feel some resistance. Beacuse I’m relatively young, maybe not very fit, but also not unfit, so I should be able to cycle without support of an electrical engine. On the other hand, I know that I’ll never cycle to the library branch which is 18 km away if not on an e-bike.
So what do I choose? My vision or my stubborness?
Buy an ebike. No doubts. It is that easy. :)
I can highly recommend an ebike, as an asthmatic living in a hilly area its the only way I can manage to cycle! And you can always keep the power on low if it makes you feel better (or even turn it off, although ebikes are heavy).