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christine's avatar

I get days like this so I can sympathise with how you are feeling and hope that you find way out of this funk. I enjoy your letter each week I actually look forward to it. Here or on instagram (chrissie8779) if you want to chat to someone who gets like this too. xx

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Anna Maria Boland's avatar

Thank you so much Christine.

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Corinne Cunningham's avatar

I feel you, big time. It's challenging. Sometimes a break is all I need to feel like I'm in a better place with it, but sometimes I dream about going off completely, too. Also - the showing of the paper edges, I just don't get. At all!

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Anna Maria Boland's avatar

Thank you, Corinne. The edges are silly. ☺️

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Shaz's avatar

I can relate to some of this. Books and cat cuddling is very much what I prefer to do. Hope you feel less tired soon.

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Anna Maria Boland's avatar

Thank you so much. ☺️

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Nienke Schuitemaker's avatar

Hi Anna Maria, your post was recommended to me in an email from Substack. The first recommendation in that essay was for Marloes de Vries' essay, 'Is Instagram holding me back?'. She is not saying quite the same thing you are, but it is about Instagram fatigue. So I hope it can be a tiny bit of a consolation to you that more people are feeling it. A lot of my own creator friends are also feeling it. I feel it.

I clicked on your post because, like you, I have been feeling tired and unsure of what to share. I haven't posted anything publicly on Instagram since February. Ironically, I've been trying to find the right words on the topic to put them in an issue of my Substack newsletter, because I've been thinking about how content and the social aspect, the community aspect, of social media has changed for almost a year now.

So I feel you. I also recognise the feeling of wanting to disconnect from the world and even the crying and the not wanting to do the whole thing of going into the world. I hope you have people close by you can talk to about that, because it is an awful and lonely way to feel - and something to take seriously. I'm sending you a virtual hug. I've subscribed, but I hope you don't take that as another pressure on yourself to create content. Some seasons of life our life are just more inward-facing than others. <3

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Anna Maria Boland's avatar

Hi Nienke, thank you for reading, subscribing and for your kind words. I know Marloes and her work and we often think similar things at the same time. Funny how you can have it with people you’ve never met.

I’m lucky to have people around me who listen and who understand me, but sometimes I feel like I don’t want to talk about it anymore, I just want to do something, move to one side and be happy with the decision. But it’s hard, you know?

Anyway, thank you again.

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